Two Years Longer Than Thirty

Another year passing will make it too long
As much that went right, too much went wrong
Do I hold her tight, as if long ago lovers we were?
Or stick out my hand and name, asking the same of her

In that time, when nothing couldn’t be overcome
During that time, any race you entered, you always won
It was five against your equal, that’s hard to explain
So why bother to try, those five criminals on that train

A message came to me, maybe long overdue
So much has happened, never forgot, that’s true
Nothing sank in, nothing that gave a careless thought
Nothing so much, not seeing the news that it brought

Those five that I mentioned, those five on the track
Like kings in the Bible, might never come back
For me, the diary you slipped into my fingers that fall
Was greater than that finger that wrote on that wall

Where did you go, why did you leave, you just disappear?
A snap of a finger, a wink of an eye, done without mirror
To enter the stage, from the left, as if nothing took place
But I hear it in your voice, and see the lines on your face

What was seen with the five can be seen by the one
That feature still there, despite all that’s she’d overcome
I guess, well, I know, it will always play a part
And the reason I longed to give you my heart

Think this over and ponder, where you’d then be
What all you had and lost, its not lost on me
If never you had it, and never it to possess
Then how would it be, those young you caress?

In a maze, in a race (that is your mind), a puzzle not clear
To unlock and uncover, to figure, down a path to steer
Wanting to tell you maybe you’re right, possibly wrong
You’re saying how feeble ‘n weak, probably you’re strong

That king, he lost his mind, a kingdom, all that he had
When things were too good, in an instant became bad
The king was a man, yet maybe he saw something in you
The mind can be strong, yet too often left licking up dew

I’m trying to say, so clear to me, what stay on my tongue
What you need to hear, what I’m explaining to someone
You lost what you had, the five have lost out too
Yet unlike them, I’m still here, calling out to you

Every ounce of pain, every day you’ve hidden away
Each time a stare, a wall, “no more to take” yourself t’say
Think of the one, reminded, picked up his own burden
Headed west to reintroduce, heart breaking for certain

To remind, to compare, what was here, what wouldn’t 
Those voices you listened to you, probably shouldn’t
I’ve mentioned five, maybe I was the ousted sixth
But that person numbered one will do all to help you fix

Does a falling star burn out, or does it go forever?
Does time stop for anyone, sorry to say no, never
Like that star, not to be heard, but needs to comment
It’s not once in life, you see and feel Hayley’s comet

Maybe events wouldn’t take their toll, easier than now
Nothing to hinder, certainly nothing to ponder, “how”?
I think what could have been, could bring relief to me
And what was there, not ever was, and pain you’re free

Instead of lost sleep, darkened vision, no audible voice
The start of your week last 8 days, not given a choice
That light in the sky, yes it has left, here so brief
If you knew you’d find the item lost, would bring relief?

Wonder at odd times if five would have been six
If instead of laughter, you were told, even now, your lips
The things we remember and question, what it’d be
You think it’s bad, yet my lack of voice pains even me

I should have said it, given more time, well, probably not
Would things have been different, get what we sought?
Those things happen quick, not even in a blink of an eye
The comet called Haley, always returns, trust even I

12-24-21